lord, beer me strength

i reject your reality and substitute my own.
female, 25, wifey, florida girl in the midwest

and it starts

well since my marriage has already lasted longer than kim kardashian’s i figure it’s safe to start posting some wedding pictures! woo hoo! i already talked about the rehearsal, got into how stressful the rehearsal dinner was for me, and went over the diy stuff i did before even all of that! so right now i’m just going to post some pictures from before the ceremony. we have over 800 amazing photos of our wedding and it’s really hard to pick just a few to share. our photographer eric was awesome and is a really cool guy that we work with! 

anyways, on with the wedding porn!

the hotel that messed up my room, but i guess ultimately was not so bad of a place to spend our first nite as husband and wife. we had cool views of the city

the ring bearer’s pillow from my older sister’s wedding in 1997. i switched out the ribbons so they would match our colors. her youngest son was our ring bearer.

the flower baby’s dress

the flower baby, miss nova

gettin my make up done by jenn jones, who was great and did almost everyone’s make up

my older sister, tarra

the bridemaid’s bouquets

my bouquet!

my dress

you know how it goes…

all ready to go!

my pretty yellow shoes

waiting for the freakin limo

in the lobby with my girls

in the limo; i love that you can see the rabbit in the reflection :)

we’re finally here!!

i should mention it had been colder and cloudy the last like five days leading up to saturday. but as you can see it was perfect on our wedding day 

look how confident i look :/

our programs (also diy)

the boys were in there

internal monologue: i’m getting married in .00000076476132 seconds and i am freaking the fuck out, but i will smile for the camera and try to look cool


hellooooooooooo november

get ready for an exciting post!!!!

i’m starting to get busy at work- just at mike’s workload is getting lighter, mine is getting heavier. it sucks to be on different schedules, but i should only be crazy for the next three weeks. then i’ll get to be crazy about thanksgiving, which we are having at our house this year. woo hoo! i love throwing a party and i love cooking, but thanksgiving is an entirely different beast. i’m not sure if mike knows this, but i told him he is in charge of the turkey… should be interesting…

after years of resisting i will probably be getting an iphone soon. i am due for an upgrade and sprint just got the iphone and i feel as though it is fate. can someone reassure me that i won’t have stupid problems on one? and that i won’t have to update it like every week? also i would really like a traffic app that actually works? 

i think i’m going to get my hair cut on thursday. i’m talkin bangs and short. not bob short, but over the shoulders short. that’s pretty short for me. i have threatened this before…

i should also mention it’s getting cold here. well today and tomorrow the highs are in the 60s, but it’s been 40s in the am for a few weeks now. i really do love fall (second favorite season what up), but i’m hoping we can keep it temperate until christmas time, as which point i’ll be in florida. say it with me people, NO SNOW TIL DECEMBER!

the rehearsal dinner

i wish i could say my entire wedding experience was fun and amazing. for the most part it was. i’m a producer so planning, producing and pulling off this sort of stuff is my job. planning our wedding was just like working extended hours, not too bad.

unfortunately for you, my blog is not about making it seem like everything is great and exciting in my life. at some points planning a wedding does suck. mike and i did fight about some things. having five out of town bridesmaids and an entire out of town family makes things worse. but i think everything mike and i went through was pretty standard. we had highs and lows and we had finally made it to the rehearsal dinner!

the rehearsal dinner was when i was at my most worst self. i was stressed out, tired and angry. angry at chicago for its shitty traffic; angry at the hotel for messing up my room; angry at my family for being to crazy; angry at mike for not answering his phone; angry at myself for feeling so disorganized. the whole time getting ready for and walking to the rehearsal dinner i was having a freak out. most of it internally of course.

by the time everyone made it to the restaurant i had not really calmed down. i think the night went well, but i was starting to feel nervous about the next day and it was showing. hopefully everyone else had a good time! all i can say about myself is that i got through it. haha, it sounds like i was miserable- i can promise i wasn’t. i think it was better than i’m making it sound, i can just really remember how stressed i was.

matching sweaters!

the best part by far of the rehearsal dinner was our groom’s cake. a stylist at work made it for us. it was a hit. it tasted delicious (chocolate, chocolate, chocolate) and looked amazing. i mean, look at it! that is a nes!! and our names on the controllers was just the icing on the literally cake (yes, that is a cake pun and yes, i did it on purpose).

oops, they caught us not posing!

yes, smiles. happy. everybody is happy. smiling

lesson learned

two fridays ago after a horrible work week i agreed to hang out with chris, a photographer friend i work with, and go see a show. i tried like four times to get out of it- i’m more of a pj’s and movie watching person when it comes to relaxing after a shitty week- but he wouldn’t let me say no.

i’m so glad i ended up going! sometimes i get so sick of the city because all i do is commute to it everyday and hate it’s traffic and crappy weather. it’s nice to go out and enjoy the city, go to a byob restaurant, walk buzzed down the street and feel the season change. it makes me miss living in the city! anyways, after a quick drive to chris’ new apartment in northwest, west lakeview (about as far northwest as you can go and still be in lakeview) we bought some beers and went to an awesome mexican restaurant around the corner from his place. the food was delicious! it was even cool enough for me to keep my leftovers in the car (something i never got to do in florida, obviously). after that we drove to park west, where mason jennings was playing.

chris had already met mason at a previous show he played in chicago (one i was supposed to go to, but then found a way out of it..). for this show chris was interviewing and shooting mason to be featured on a music website. (the interview isn’t up yet, but if you feel like checking it out the website is here) so earlier that day chris got to interview and shoot mason and at the show he was going to take more photos.

i don’t have a lot of mason jennings music, but what i did already listen to i loved. going to the show made me love it even more. i can’t wait to get more of his music! he is a really charming, authentic person and an incredibly talented musician. the whole show he was switching instruments from guitar to piano, then piano and harmonica, then to drums. he was really awesome. i’m so happy chris and mike forced me to go. i need to stop being such a loser and do stuff like this more often.

all photos are from monaghan photography 

i’m glad you’re moving back!

three years

i guess because i was so delighted and weirded out by this amazing weather we’ve been having i neglected to mention that october 5th marked my third year in chicago. i sorta decided to move here on a wimp, but it would seem it worked out for me. in three short years i moved here from florida, got a real job, met a guy, lost a best friend, bought a house and got married. not too bad, huh?

i can’t believe how fast three years went by. i’m excited to see what will happen next!

halo and i in our first (and only) chicago apartment the night we drove in from florida,october 5th 2008

a few days later at the bean

here’s to you, chicago! part of the skyline during obama rally november, 4th 2008

indian summer

i’m pretty sure i had no idea what an indian summer was before moving to the midwest, but now it’s my second favorite “season”. (my favorite season, of course, is summer, followed by indian summer, fall, winter and then spring- spring is a bitch up here)

anyways, for the last week it’s slower been getting warmer and warmer. yesterday is was sunny and 85. i messed around with my “garden”- getting it ready for the cold. halo sat outside among the leaves, probably confused about the warm, but enjoying it nonetheless.

mike had to work at the studio, but when he got home we had our last dinner outside. we grilled burgers with bacon, pineapple and bbq sauce; i made garlic mashed potatoes and zucchini chips. it all got washed down with a bottle of strongbow.

next weekend the forecast is rainy and in the 50s, so this is most likely it for the warm weather. i will miss it. summer goes by too fast, then fall goes by too fast. the holidays come and go and then we’re just stuck with snow and cold, cold, cold. i guess it’s a little early for me to already be getting depressed about it so here are some pictures from yesterday.

also i went to the thrift store and bought some christmas tins for cookie baking and i found this awesome florida tin thing (i’m not sure what it is…). anyway, i think it’s pretty cool and it up about our kitchen cabinets now.


it’s 10 pm and we have the windows open. sooo nice. i hope this lasts awhile.

the rehearsal

so, the day before our wedding we had our rehearsal, which could be descripted as quick and dirty. we were only supposed to have an hour to run through the ceremony, set up tables and centerpieces and communicate anything and everything to cari, our venue contact. we did end up being there for almost two hours, but, boy, did they go fast! luckily i had the help of my two sisters, my brother, my soon to be brother in law, seven of mike’s friends and my 6 bridesmaids. they all worked like machines to help get everything thing in the venue and looking pretty. as i mentioned before we did go through the ceremony, which was freaky. that’s when i realized holy shit this is happening. this is happening tomorrow. 

of course, by the time we finished we had to hurry back to the hotel to get ready for the rehearsal dinner, which was at 6 pm. chicago rush hour traffic on a friday did help us one bit. by the time we got back to the hotel and got the right room (yes, the first room they gave me had people in it, so that set me back quite a bit time-wise) i didn’t even have time to shower! needless to say at that point i was pretty stressed out. there were only a couple of horrible moments during our wedding weekend and that was definitely one of them.

below are some very blurry pictures for our rehearsal. next up, the rehearsal dinner!

the wedding party

owen had everything under control. so glad he was there!

practicing walking

the guys

the girls

and us!

high tea

so in july i had my bridal shower with my family and mom’s friends. mike’s mom julie wasn’t able to come so she and one of my bridesmaids, kristen, gathered up what few people i know here and had a sort of “personal” bridal shower thing. last saturday we all went to the palm court at the drake hotel for high tea. it was amazing. there was only eight of us, but it was fun. we had champagne and tea (well, i had a cappuccino) and finger sandwiches, pastries and candies. everything was delicious. it was a bit touristy and not everyone was dressed up, but the room was gorgeous. there was harp player. a harp player!

since it was a “personal” shower I got a few presents from victoria’s secret, but mostly gift cards. I am so thankful for everything. throwing the shower was a really nice thing to do for a girl who has managed to live somewhere for almost three years (wow that’s a long time) and still has yet to make a lot of friends.


Oh Chicago, only you could swing from 95 degrees to 66 degrees in one week’s time. I can’t wait to be back in your crazy and often cold arms.

i want mid 70s for the wedding. i know the whole thing is inside, but i don’t want to hear any complaining from anyone about it being too cold (family will complain) or too hot (groom will complain). once sept 17th is in the seven day forecast i will probably turn into a crazy person.

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These are upcoming adventures that I am so excited for:

1.) Shark Night 3Din theatres this weekend with my heterolifemate.

2.) Halloween Horror Nights in October with my heterolifemate, and probably some other friends too.

3.) Tennessee “Badgerfest” in October with my dad…

when you guys going to hhn? i need to know!!!

it’s official!

we can get married!

yesterday mike and i took a long lunch and a short drive to the loop to go get our marriage license! we had to go underneath the daley center (where apparently they forgot to turn on the ac) wait in line a little bit, and tell some crazy barbados women a lot about ourselves and parents. in 20 minutes we walked out with a fancy license and a new found feeling of dread and excitement. we immediately handed the license to our officiant (who also works with us) and he will keep it til our wedding day. i can’t believe we only have 3 weeks until the wedding. i feel totally unprepared, but really we are. there’s a lot of planning to be done, but we have everything we need really. 

let the real countdown begin!



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